Queer indie-pop artist girlboy J just released her debut single, ‘Not Real, Not Here’. This pop-punk infused track discusses mental health and battling your inner demons.
And I haven’t been real for years
I’m just going through the motions
girlboy J shares the following about ‘Not Real, Not Here’:
“The chorus talks about my experience with dissociation and apathy and PTSD. There were so many periods of my life where I would literally say to people “I’m not a real person anymore” and everyone thought I was being emo or poetic, but I actually didn’t know how else to phrase what I was going through….
Later when I got diagnosed with PTSD I found out that it is very common for people with it to articulate that they don’t feel real, or that they have this inexplicable feeling that they aren’t living a normal life. It’s like no matter how hard you go through the motions and check off the boxes everyone else is checking off, there is some sort of disconnect–you can’t get back to the effortlessness of existing, you just have to fake it.“