Today’s video of the day comes from the heartbreakingly named Sadness & Complete Disappointment. ‘Survivor’s Guilt’ is out now with a video recalling the glamorous, silent ’20s (as opposed to these casual, virulent ’20s).
A love song of sorts; lead vocalist and drummer Esme admits that:
“it’s more about the desperation to not be alone, regardless of the cost to your happiness because, no matter what they tell you, no one wants to be alone. By choosing to pursue anyone, in actual fact you only have yourself to blame when you inevitably get hurt because in the end no one will ever love you in the way you need to be loved. My ex-girlfriend walked me to her house in Brixton once and told me that I couldn’t come in. “This is my house and you’ll never see inside” she said and she laughed. But I did see inside and I saw so deep inside her head and her mind and inside there was NOTHING. She wanted to fuck to EDM.”
The band (Esme, Bek and Kit), who describe themselves as a ‘Midlands misery-grunge trio’, release their debut EP ‘Fun’ on 5 March – but don’t let the title fool you, the melancholic rock’n’roll themes continue throughout the 4-track. Esme says:
“We’re so fucking bored. Even before these constant lockdowns we had already ceased to live and were existing in this never-ending cycle of something too benign to be called anguish, trapped in a small town, in a small room. We can paint a sparkly visual through our smartphones, the pocket-sized porthole into other people’s individual cells, and this gives us a taste of make-believe, an idea that we are something better, a chemical reaction in our primitive minds, just enough to take off the edge. Dopamine, serotonin, a forced smile and an edited photograph and it’s never enough. A like button and a glimmer of something akin to fulfilment in the vaguest way, but it never is fulfilment, it can not replace true and honest human connection. Every day is the same and every day is so ugly.”
Thank goodness for music as a release ❤️ Might we also endorse – frisbee.